Tuesday, October 5, 2010

C.O.N.F.E.S.S.I.O.N

Me (thinking): I have always wanted a life without her; a life without cogitating, about anything that'd have to do with her. But alas! The more I tried to let go of her thought, the stronger the flood of her emotions running thru my vain.

 
I have tried so many times dealing with two or three relationships. I have had the best I have gone for the less. But the thought of her could not still, keep me with the rest. If this life i adore would be surrounded by the broken pieces of our togetherness, then I don’t think I would end up on a bed with a pillow or a cover sheet.

 
Besides her straggling love that fares me away, she knows when to make me cry and when to put smile on my face. I have loved her without hesitation; put her in my fame of this very spot, where many a time her triumphed is forgot.


Her recent confession goes like this; while mine doesn’t matter, because even if I marry someone else today I would still be living in her shadow.


Maryam: “I do care about u Tj I really do, I was not fair on u in the past and u were nothing but loving, I took u for granted and I was wrong.


U deserve to be happy and u deserve someone to make u happy, you’re the best partner anyone cud wish for and I was crazy for being crazy.


I always think about u from time to time and I also always remembered what we had, our laughs fights and our love, it was magical


There's still no replacing u, and even though u also have hurt me and I have done the same u were the best I ever had, I still love u.


But I don't even know what that even means, I’ve hurt too many people also and it's like I can't function in a relationship


I wouldn't want 2 make u sad again I wouldn't want 2 break your heart, all u need now is happiness. Find a girl that loves u and make a home.


Make a family and when your kids come they will be your priority and u can finally get rid of me, I want u to be happy Tj coz I truly love u.


Hey going to sleep now downloading yahoo app on my bb so we will chat tomorrow, love u very much Tj and this time I mean it with my blue heart.


i love u so very much."


Me: ' and i love you too," i reciprocated with discomfort, because im certain-no matter how hard we try to swim back to eachother's arms...the current of the ocean which is fate would always drive us apart.

2 comments:

sholagiwa23 said...

so much love here, somehow i think everyone gets sensations and feelings, every boy likes a girl,every male adult tries to get a lady. The only time i see a man, is when im looking at a male, a boy who has gone from liking a girl to finding one he wants to be known with and then chosen to love and be with forever. somehow, this message of yours takes you miles ahead of most men. Way to go

Poetry of Love and Life (PLL) said...

Thanks for dropping by bro. Love is such a powerful feeling...